Day 5 of Cycle 1 AGAIN!

I'm back on cycle 1...my style. What does that mean? I have lunch meats here and there, and I always have my yogurt with nuts in it. I also have a latte with non-fat milk once in a while. Fortunately I've lot 2 of the lbs I gained over Thanksgiving, but now it's time to lose more. I want to be 170lbs or below by my B-day which is December 19th. That means I have to bump everything up...that's 4 lbs. I have started working out everyday since Monday. Today I did spinning. It was a great workout...but when I went to put my daughter in my car I had a major pain and had to just sit there to recover. It turns out that it was my sciatic nerve. I read that during spinning there's repetitive rubbing against the piriformis muscle and that this causes the muscle to become tight and put pressure against the sciatica nerve. I'm hoping the pain will be manageable tomorrow so that I can co my favorite Cardiosculpt workout!

I will continue to write. I also plan to start adding more fish into my diet.

Back on Again! YAY!

I did start the diet today. Good thing. My weight was up 3lbs to 176lbs. Let's see how long it'll take me to get that off. I've eaten pretty well today. Back to my tea and no carbs and sugar. The interesting thing is that I don't have headaches anymore, even though I'm detoxing. That's good. It makes me think I'm not as addicted as I was before. phew. I'll keep posting to see how this new 17 day cycle goes. I plan to stick to it since my b-day is in Dec. I want to feel good that day :)

Off Continued!

I'm still on the off day....I overdid it...that's for sure! I had my Baskin Robbins...and the truth is that it didn't taste great. I need to remember that! I feel so full and bloated that I'm ready to be back on the diet as of RIGHT NOW! I'm basically done eating for the day and starting tomorrow am back on cycle 1. I know it'll be tough because I'll be detoxing again, but I'm excited about it! I want to get back on my plan :) I just thought I'd write what I was feeling/thinking before I start tomorrow! :)

Totally off.....ouch!

Well, I went crazy this week. I ate WHATEVER I wanted which was lots of carbs and things that are not on the diet! But it's ok. I am back in Denver...arrived this morning, and I've decided that I will be re-starting tomorrow. I will start back on Cycle 1....I need to kick start my system and get rid of all these toxins (carbs and sugars) that are back on my body! so I will be enjoying today. As you can see...that shows that I haven't gotten rid of all my bad eating habits, but I'm not giving up. I still love the diet and will make myself focus again. I will weigh in tomorrow to see how bad I am...I'm guessing I'm up 5 lbs.

I'm also feeling pretty depressed this morning. I'm not sure what it is. Leaving TX? Not sleeping enough? Knowing that my move to NJ is now around the corner? Being "homeless"? Not sure. I do spend alot of time thinking about the next house I want...and the sad thing is that I don't think we'll be able to afford it in NJ. I'm not working right now so we'll be on 1 salary...not sure how long it'll take me to get a job, and really we only want to get a hosue for 1 salary...we want to live within our means and not put ourselves in a bad position. But it makes me sad. If we stayed in CO we could now afford a larger house...maybe 4 bedrooms and 3 baths. I would like that in case we have another baby and then if my in laws come they stay for about 3 months at a time...so it would be comfortable. My husband would also like an office area and I'd like a space for my sewing machines and crafts etc. We'll see. I think this is part of what has me down though. I spend a lot of time looking at houses and know that we won't be able to afford much, and maybe it doesn't even make sense to buy. Anyway, I need to let that go because I try to remember that "things" aren't what makes us happy really. So much is internal.

Ok, back to the diet. Tomorrow I plan to get very strict again. My birthday is Dec 19th, that's why it's good timing...I will be in cycle 2 by the time it comes around. Like I said I just need to kick start again. I think I will also start documenting some plans for myself so I don't downward spiral.

That's it for now. Like I said, I'll update my weight starting tomorrow.

Just Landed

I've just landed in San Antonio. My daughter made it through although she didn't nap at all...she was great. Amazing to see her getting older now. She's now in Toddler stage...leaving baby stage :) I got this weird euphoric feeling in the airport. I felt "life is good". I was with my daughter and my husband flying to San Antonio to be with my dad and my step mom. it felt stress free and like a nice week to enjoy and relax. I felt like I really have to appreciate what I have....

So now we've landed, and we had lunch. That's where one of the challenges of the week did show up...food! I can't be so stress free that I will eat whatever! Today for lunch I had onion soup and some cold cuts...that was fine for the diet. But I know there will be challenging days. Like I've already decided that I will enjoy Thanksgiving. I will have mashed potatoes, stuffing, and gravy! And I will probably go to Baskin Robbins with my dad this week. That's our thing...and I want to continue our tradition...we will take my daughter. But other than that I will try to stay to plan. I haven't been very good lately. Yesterday I had some chocolate in the evening and popcorn at my TWILIGHT movie :) yes, I watch Twilight. I have to tell you that my friend and I did our own book club (just her and I) because we wanted to understand what all the excitement was about...well, we both LOVED the series. We couldn't believe it either and were embarassed to admit it! I have to say it's really one of the worst movies I've ever seen...but the books are SO GREAT :) Ok, that was quite a bit off subject...basically, I am still on the diet but will be cheating a bit. We'll see how it goes...I'll keep updating :)

Struggling with so much change...

Well, I'm finally moved and have time to write. I'm in the middle of a transition...I just sold my house in Colorado, that I lived in for 9 years, and will be moving to Princeton NJ in January. In th meantime my husband, daughter, and I are living in our friend's basement. it's a really nice space so that is good. But the transition definitely has me stressed. I've been eating ok, but I have gone up a pound. (174lbs). During the move I lost track of where I was...once we moved I looked at my calendar and realized that I should be on cycle 2 now (round 2), so here I am. Today was the first day I've really cheated on the diet...it was a no carb day and I had some crackers. I'm not worried, I know I will get back on tomorrow...but it is a sign of the stress I feel. I had flown out to NJ to interview for a job and the company never called be back...after they had said they would have a decision for me the following week. I can assume I didn't get the job, but it's really tough when you don't get closure. it really is like a bad break up. It's made me very stressed and down on myself. When I think back to the interview I realize that I really let my confidence, or more like lack of confidence, get in my way. This is what I plan to focus on right now. I need to start doing some positive affirmation work! I do have great experience and many strengths...so I need to start focusing on those.

That is the great thing about the 17 day diet, it really does help you feel better about yourself because you get some control back. It has done that for me. I hadn't felt in control with food in YEARS. That's why I have to keep the diet going. I also plan to start working out much more now. I'm no longer working so there's no excuse. I need it for my emotional state :) I need to get out of this depressed state :) Ok, bye for now.

Slowly but Surely!!!!

2 days ago I weighed in and I was down another lb...YAY! It's amazing how happy I get over a lb now. I've joined so many weightloss programs in the past and I never felt good with a lb...I guess I know that in this diet it's one lb close to the next lb I'll lose! I never felt that in programs like WW...instead I just felt that it was the down to the up that was coming next week!!! It was basically no confidence in myself.

Ok, so how'd I lose that 1lb? I've noticed that when I eat my 2 yogurt's it makes a big difference. I'm still on cycle 1 and I'm not the most strict 17 day dieter there is...I put nuts in my yogurt and sometimes I have a slice of ham...and 2 days ago I had a double whopper with cheese without the bun! So I cheat, but I do it in moderation! I don't have sweets or carbs, but I will stray from Chicken and Fish that start to BORE me. Actually I barely have any fish, I need to work on this. I also need to drink more water.

Friday is my last day working...and Monday they pack up everything in my house and move it to New Jersey. I'll keep writing through this move process. I feel blogging really does help me. I'm so thankful to my good friend that encouraged me (by example) to blog :)

Back to work...